It's times like these, where I just lie wide awake, that I really get to thinkin'.

I've never really been partial to either gender. I see girls and guys together, guys and guys, girls and girls, who really love each other and I think to myself, that's what I want. It really makes me happy to see two people who love each other...Love each other. I think it's wonderful. But lately, I've been drawn to girls and girls instead of anything otherwise. I know that's okay with my mother but not with my father, but that's not what I'm worried about. Hell, I don't even know what I'm worried about. It's just confusing and I don't want people to know.

Ironic I'm writing to the Internet about this.

Well, the world isn't getting any more tolerant, so if I really am gay, then what will I have to face? I can't imagine the world being tolerant of each other--that's it, tolerant. You don't have to support what they do, you just have to deal. You have to cope with it, go on living knowing someone out there isn't like you. I'm not asking you to understand, just accept.

I have no idea where I'm going with this, sorry. Wasting time. Sayin' what's on my mind.