I'm feeling oddly depressed tonight/this morning. My best friend had just told me that we had basically nothing in common anymore and she just didn't know how to talk to me, and it hurt. This is the girl who's practically my sister, who's saved me from killing myself and having thoughts of doing idiotic emo shit. And she can't talk to me anymore. It sucks. I don't know what I'd do without her; I wonder if she knows. She's one of the most important things in my life, besides my mother, and here she is unable to make comfortable conversation. I'm so scared. I don't want her to go; she said she wasn't but you never know. She's the only friend I have to talk to and she doesn't like doing it! I know I'm repeating myself, but it's just so unbelievable...I never thought it would happen.

I really need a hug. I wish I had someone here to hold me and tell me they need me, but only a select few of my family and one friend do.